Currently…

Hi! I thought it’d be fun to do one of those “Currently”-type posts to share what I’ve been up to lately.

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Image via Netflix

Watching: We just finished GLOW season 2. It’s becoming one of my favorite shows, ever. Maybe I’ll try to do another Couch Life post soon and go more in depth, but I LOVE this show and loved season 2! I might have even liked it more than the first season. We also finished our run of watching the Golden Girls, so now we have to find something else to watch. Any suggestions??

Reading: Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer. I really want to see the documentary that just came out based on this book. I also just started the audiobook version of Devil in the White City by Erik Larson. I’m really bad at making time to read during the week, but usually read more during the summer thanks to frequent trips to the beach!

Listening to: I’m obsessed with Lizzo’s new banger “Boys.” I’m also loving the new Chromeo album Head over Heels. Both are perfect for summer! Sometimes you’ve just got to dance it out. I also love podcasts but download more than I have time to listen to–I’m planning to do a roundup of some of my favorites soon.

Eating: All the tacos. I covered it in my Monday meal plan, but I pretty much ate tacos (or some variant of) every night this week. What can I say–they’re the perfect food.

Excited about: We’ve got a few more trips coming up this summer, and I can’t wait! Summer is a really busy time for us, but it’s also a fun time. I tend to pack things in, but summer goes by so fast–I want to make the most of it. Once the weather cools, we tend to not leave the house much, so we’re trying to get out and about as much as possible.

Learning about: Tarot. I bought a vintage set of tarot cards a little while back and have been doing a daily card draw to learn more about it. Biddy Tarot has been a fantastic resource, and I’ve also been using an iPhone app called Golden Thread Tarot. It’s been really interesting, and the cards I’m drawing are always crazy accurate!

Searching for: An enamel mug. I’d love one for camping, but I’m having a hard time finding a good one. I’m thinking about buying this one from Stay Home Club, but it’s kind of pricey for a mug (maybe they all are?). Any recommendations?

Tell me: What have you been up to lately? Feel free to answer these prompts in the comments! I also found this post really helpful: “102 Verbs to Use for Currently Blog Posts.”

 

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Birthday weekend in Caseville and 4th of July celebrations

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Our tent set up. We borrowed and used cheap tents for a while but finally invested in a good one last year!

Is it just me, or does the 4th of July seem like it happened weeks ago? It hasn’t even been a full week! We went camping at the end of June to celebrate my birthday, and it feels like it never happened. Once we come back and get into a routine, it’s like we never left. I feel that way about summer in general–we wait so long for it to return, but once it’s here, it’s like it’s always been summer. Then it flies by, and we’re back to waiting ;).

One nice thing about blogging is having a record of things I’ve done. Let’s try to remember the past couple weeks, shall we?

I was actually in New Orleans on a work trip toward the end of the month. Once I came back, I had a couple days at home, then we were off again–so that’s why I didn’t really get back into my usual routine.

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Coffee is a priority, even while camping!

We took off on a Thursday night and camped for three nights at Sleeper State Park in Caseville (Michigan). We stayed there last year and really liked it, plus it was one of the few places with any availability when I was booking. The State Parks really filled up fast this year!

We got there kind of late on Thursday. I hate setting up in the dark, but it was nice waking up there on Friday. We spent some time checking out the shops in Caseville before hitting the beach.

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Used book scores!
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Shortly before I got one of the worst sunburns I’ve had in a long time.

Caseville is a small town, but they have a really nice beach. They also have a brewery! My husband isn’t a huge beer guy, but since it was my birthday, he couldn’t say no ;).

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Thumb Brewery in Caseville. I tried their IPA, gose, and a lavender lemon ale that was super refreshing.
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Honestly, most of the weekend was spent eating chips.

We had a fire later at night (my favorite part about camping!), although it was mostly so we could cook dinner. It was in the 90s all weekend! I’m not trying to go too far into “glamping” territory, but thank goodness we had a couple of small fans for our tent or we would have roasted.

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Repping my favorite podcast.

On Saturday, we drove over to Port Austin and spent some time at their Farmer’s Market. We bought incredibly delicious homemade pickles and potato chips (honestly, probably the best salt and vinegar chips I’ve ever had!). The pickles did not last long. After the market, we grabbed a couple of drinks to cool off before heading back to the beach.

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Hers and his (mango habanero margarita and electric lemonade).

On Sunday, we headed home, with a brief detour at a flea market and stop at one of my favorite restaurants, D’Angelo’s. It’s a pizza place with a vegan menu, and their burgers are delicious.

The fun didn’t stop there, though! We took off a couple extra days to recoup, plus we had the 4th of July holiday, so we spent a few more days eating all the things and getting all the sun.

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Belle Isle beach in Detroit.
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I wasn’t ready to quit the bonfires!

On Wednesday, my sister and brother-in-law had us all over for the 4th of July.

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I wish I got a better picture of my husband’s awesome shirt.

It was also a belated birthday celebration.

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I have to share the cute wrapping paper on the present from my parents! I love it.

My mom got me the best gift! Everything was Golden Girls themed. I couldn’t stop laughing.

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Golden Girls Funko Pops, hot sauce, umbrella, and Mad Libs!

I actually tried to buy those Pops recently, but my husband told me not to. He said we had too many, which is honestly a valid reason, hah! Still, I kept stalking them on Amazon and almost threw them into my cart multiple times. Little did I know, he was in on it and was trying to keep me from buying them!

To continue the festivities, my sister also got me the most amazing vegan cake! It was a funfetti-style cake topped with vanilla and birthday cake flavored macarons. It was SO GOOD. My terrible picture doesn’t do it justice!

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Amazing vegan cake from For the Love of Sugar in Detroit.

Whew! We packed a lot into a few days. It was a great trip and birthday, and I’m looking forward to camping more this summer. Hope you had a great 4th of July, too!

Tell me: How did you celebrate the 4th? Do you like camping?

PS: Want more Golden Girls? Revisit this Saturday Six post: Thank You for Being a Friend.

This is 32

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32: no makeup, just me

I turned 32 on Friday.

It’s cliche, but I don’t feel 32, at all. In my mind, I still feel like I’m in my early 20s, if not younger. I’ve grown and changed over the years, sure, but I still have a lot of the same doubts and worries I struggled with at 16.

I’m at the age where I need to start thinking about wrinkle prevention, but I’m still struggling with acne. I constantly buy new products to try but am stubborn about going to the dermatologist. I hate making any type of doctor’s appointment–or talking on the phone in general. Online scheduling only, please. Same goes for pizza delivery.

I try to eat well, but I overdo it sometimes. My eyes are bigger than my stomach. I haven’t figured out portion control. I don’t binge like I used to, but I still have times where I eat based on emotions rather than hunger. I can’t keep ice cream in the freezer. I also still have nights where I drink too much. I wake up swearing that I will never drink again, but inevitably, one beer will turn into three. (Granted, it doesn’t take much.)

I’m probably more comfortable with myself than I’ve ever been–it really is true that the older you get, the less you care what people think of you. That doesn’t mean I don’t care. I still get insecure–in my work, in my relationship, in my friendships. If I hear someone whispering, I always think they are talking about me. There are times when I feel confident and other times when I feel like everyone is judging me. If I’m out by myself, I’m always on high alert (SSDGM). That’s just being cautious, though.

I haven’t figured out my personal style. I guess that’s not true–I haven’t figured out a professional style. I rush out the door like a hot mess most mornings. My closet is an entire bedroom, but there are still days with nothing to wear. I’ll change shirts five times and pants another three, before settling on the same jeans and a t-shirt (my uniform of choice). I don’t know how to look “put together.” I’ll sometimes take fashion risks, but half the time I’ll talk myself out of it before I leave the house (see above).

I haven’t grown out of my teenage moodiness. I have a temper, and the most inane things will set me off. I take things personally, even when I know it’s not personal. I’m not great in emotional situations. I don’t visit my family enough. I have a lot of guilt, but I don’t take a lot of action.

To some, 32 is young, and to others, it’s old. My point is, I haven’t got it figured out. Most days I feel like I’m stumbling through adulthood, trying to figure out who let me live unsupervised. I don’t know what I’m doing. Neither does anyone. When we’re younger, we look at adulthood like some magical solution. One day, our problems will be solved. We’ll have all the answers. It’s just “adolescence.” Then you get older, and you’re still waiting for that day. The timeline shifts. Your problems evolve and change, but they’re still there.

We’re imperfect. It’s part of the beauty of it all. All I can do is try to be better each day. Recognize my faults but also my strengths. Be grateful for what I have and for each opportunity to try again. There’s bad days, sure–but there’s a lot of joy, too.

This is 32.

Fourth Wedding Anniversary!

Four years ago today, my husband and I were married!

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First look

I thought it’d be fun to walk down memory lane and share some wedding pics. We’ve been together for 15 years but married for 4. My husband proposed in December 2012 when he thought the world would end and he wouldn’t have to go through with it (remember that? ha). Four years later, here we are! Cat parents and homeowners and we still like to hang out together every day.

Let’s get to it!

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I loved my braided updo!
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Me!
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The happy couple
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My family
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Is this an album cover or what?
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My ladies… We did the “choose your own dress” thing, and it worked out really well!
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We had a loose concert/music festival theme (I shared the awesome Save the Dates my sister made for me a while back)
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Favors (our cliche knows no bounds)
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Cupcakes over cake (which if you know me, is not a surprise!): I’m pretty sure we had funfetti, red velvet, marble, and lemon with raspberry filling. The cake on top was red velvet. Everything was DELICIOUS.
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We had this custom cake topper made, which pretty much sums up our relationship
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My dad and me (moment of truth!)
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Did I mention we got married by Elvis?
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Ceremony
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It’s official!
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We did it!
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My mom was very excited about Elvis
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My gorgeous sister and bro-in-law!
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My mom is one of a kind 🙂 (I mean, we did have BBQ!)
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One of my favorite pictures
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Tradition
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Sparklers to finish off the night

Thanks for reminiscing with me! It was such a fun day/night… I kind of wish we could do it all again each year. The weather was perfect, and we had a great time celebrating with our friends and family. After the wedding, we were off to a week in Orlando–which I also wish I could do again each year 😉

Let me know in the comments if there’s anything you want to know more about! Happy first day of summer (no coincidence that we decided to get married on the longest day of the year)!

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My own worst enemy

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“Don’t Believe Everything You Think” print by Mel Cerri. Available on Society6.

Lit was right–I am my own worst enemy. (Quick vote: worst or best way to start a blog post?)

I’m noticing that the biggest challenge I face each day is myself. Take yesterday, for example: I received some GREAT news, had a lovely work lunch, and my husband and I were productive for once and ran some errands after work. It felt like everything was going our way.

I ended the night by overeating and feeling bad about myself. I’m not sure what happened. I had dinner and was really full but started to feel kind of down. I then proceeded to eat too much ice cream, even though I knew it would make me feel like garbage.

This is just a small example, but it’s one to which some of you can relate. I make goals, I make progress, and I self sabotage. Two steps forward, one step back. It’s like I can’t trust myself to improve, to be happy, to do the right thing.

It’s not ice cream that’s the problem (although weirdly enough, when I searched “sabotage” on a photo search site, a picture of ice cream popped up). It’s the fact that I do things on a regular basis that don’t benefit me. My rational brain warns me of the consequences, but I continue anyway.

Sometimes I eat too much ice cream, even though eating a lot of sugar makes me feel like crap (I love it so much though). I pick at my face, even though I know it will just make the situation worse. I yell at my husband, even though I hate making him feel bad. I drink too much in social situations because I don’t know what else to do. I buy things I don’t really need. I decline invites to events I really want to go to, because anxiety. I don’t speak up enough. I doubt myself.

Life is a constant battle against enemy number one: our inner critic. In the book You Are A Badass (highly recommend), Jen Sincero talks about how once you finally start to enact positive change in your life, it seems like everything else aligns against you. Things will go wrong. You have to trust and push through.

I complained to my husband, asking why I always do this. Is the five minutes of pleasure I get from the self sabotage worth the hours of guilt and grief? Honestly, sometimes it is. Sometimes it isn’t. He told me to look at each situation, think about how I’d feel after, and decide whether it would be worth it. The hard part is, it always seems worth it in the moment.

Still, I think it’s good advice. It at least forces me to face the issue and think about the consequences. If I deem it worth it, I should proceed, guilt free. If not, I’ll know I made the right decision.

Whichever choice we make, the most important thing–and the most difficult–is to accept it and move on. There are other days, other choices. We can acknowledge that maybe we made the wrong decision for us at that time, but there’s no reason or benefit to feeling guilty about it. Learn from the situation and consider it next time you are in the same position. If you make the same mistake again, so be it. Circumstances were different. Acknowledge, reflect, and move forward.

Each day is a new opportunity to try.

 

Tell me: Do you struggle with self sabotage? How do you keep yourself in check?